I’M DYING…..

I’M DYING…..

Wow, I never thought I’d feel like this…I never thought I’d have so many questions in such a short period of time. As I sit here in my office in Canada, my mind runs through all that has happened over the first quarter of my life. As I reflect, I can honestly say that I barely recognize myself anymore. I think to myself, will people even know me anymore? What will they say? How will they respond? This really hurts…I was always told that dying wasn’t easy and for some iT can be a very scary thing but as I sit here just having received the news from God, that I am “dying” it hits me…That this is it…No going back, no turning the hands of time…Its over and life as I know it will never exist again… As I sit here, I must say that I am hurting but relieved at the same time. Over the years I’ve had so many thoughts, to do so many things, to go so many places and to meet so many people…and you mean to tell me that it’s all over…Wow, as tears roll down my face at just the thought of what this means…I can say that I am thankful that God extended his grace for me to do things my way for so long, all while being under the impression that I was “Oh so submitted and surrendered”. The truth is: I was submitted, to me that is. I had lived a surrendered life but it was to me, myself, and I. Sure, I left everything and everyone that was familiar to...
NO MORE SNACKS!!!

NO MORE SNACKS!!!

NO MORE SNACKS Everyone has had a snack at some point in their lives….And at some point we have all lost our appetite for meals due to the intake of excessive amounts of snacks! An interesting thing happens when you eat snacks, your appetite decreases for what you are “waiting” for and your hunger is curved because it has been “artificially satisfied”. A few weeks ago, God spoke to me and gave me one of the most amazing downloads. By the end of our conversation I was sure of one thing,  that I would no longer “snack” as a means to satisfy a craving, void, desire, aspiration, goal or dream that can only be filled by what God HIMSELF has prepared at my table for me. (I have a table and you do too…And everything at that table has been prepared personally for you..Don’t snack on “that”, that’s not even your table!) Now I know…many of you may be reading this and saying to yourself, “What’s the big deal? A snack here and there never hurt anyone… Wrong! If we be honest about the matter, we often snack in various ways that have decreased our desire and hunger for that which God is preparing for us. Let’s take a non-spiritual appraoch for a moment. Have you ever gone to a restaurant, anticipating the amazing meal that you have been craving and seeing images of your television screen? And have you ever in the “waiting” period of your meal had a few “biscuits, rolls, etc.”? And have you ever said to yourself “I should’nt have eaten all of that “bread” because now I no longer have “room” or...